All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another.
You can learn all the math in the ‘verse, but you take a boat in the air that you don’t love, she’ll shake you off just as sure as the turning of the worlds. Love keeps her in the air when she ought to fall down, tells you she’s hurting before she keens. Makes her a home. [x]
#no why would you ever #i didn’t see that bottom lip tremble until i watched it in 1080p #and now i wish i hadn’t #that first gif #he’s in shock #he doesn’t know what to do so he just sits down and he’s stiff and still and -braced- #but the blow has already come #so bones is lagging #his reaction time is off because the half that keeps him check is gone #he has no one to react -for- anymore #just a…lack of someone #and the second gif is where it all just drains out #i can feel it now #his heart plummeting into his stomach and later on after he realizes that maybe khan’s blood can save him and he injects him and just has to wait #he’ll be sick #sicker than he’s ever been even at his most hungover #and he didn’t cry here but he will #when everything isn’t chaos #it’s not calm but it’s not frenzy #it’s not really anything anymore #there’s a horrible stillness in the air #everything is -off- #the ship has lost its shimmer #bones has lost his himself #when the light in jim’s eyes dulled #when his body went cold #so did everything else #especially bones #because he knows there’s a good chance that the glimmer in those lighthouse eyes won’t be guiding him home anymore #wow i’m sorry my hand slipped (tags via lilprincelyfucker)